it’s been hard trying to figure out how to put this into words but its finally time i say it. i love you so much and i know you don’t feel the same way anymore but i really do. losing you was the last thing i wanted and the past week I’ve been lost without you. I’m so used to seeing you at school just holding your hand and showing you off to everyone. i miss our endless conversations and i miss just knowing that even if its not tomorrow or the next day but soon enough i will be able to just cuddle and lay with you. i know we weren’t perfect, we weren’t even close, but we clearly loved each other for sticking with each other so long. there were times i could of easily just given up, and there were many times you could have to. and now you did. i was taking you for granted and even though its too late i wanted to apologize. i really cared about you and i was just scared of losing you to someone else. if i could take it all back i would i really would. i know you probably don’t believe me because I’ve said id change so many times but i promise i would. ive hung out with other people yet i just can’t seem to get you off my mind. whenever they get close it just makes me miss you more. the thought of me with anyone else makes me sick to my stomach. you told me i would be okay without you, and i am, but that doesn’t mean i don’t think about you everyday and miss everything. I’ve never felt the way i do before to anyone else. i lay up at night thinking of all the ways i could have changed this but i couldn’t come up with anything, and i constantly find myself checking my phone for a message from you. I’m sorry i made you feel trapped and tied down and I’m sorry i messed things up. i would love it if you came home and gave me another chance. but if you come home and think, i cant love her anymore, i will also learn to respect that too.